happygurl

2012-02-03T10:51:00.000+08:00

It will become habit.

2012-01-29T16:15:00.002+08:00

Who are we actually hiding from?

If we can all be a little more truthful, perhaps the world will be a better place.

Haha, just some random thoughts of the day.

1,2,3...

I'm still counting my blessing.

2012-01-27T13:33:00.002+08:00

Happy belated Chinese New Year! (:(:

Am in high mood lately due to the endless goodies and bak kwa everywhere I go! (:(: and definitely not forgetting the awesome company. I have no idea why but memories are amazing things. We never knew how important others are at that point of time but as we slowly think back, there are so much that we can be grateful for. Just some random thoughts after meeting with family and friends. Even as time passes and memory fades, the only thing we can do is to create more to remind ourselves that we are all very lucky to have come together.

So all we can do now is to enjoy what we have instead of what we lack.

Do more, complain less.

One life, live it. (:

2012-01-19T09:04:00.003+08:00

One day an 11 year old girl asked her daddy,

"What are you going to get me for my 15th birthday?"

The father replied, "There is much time left."

When the girl was 14 she fainted and was rushed to the hospital.

The doctor came out and told her dad she had a bad heart& she is probably gonna die...

When she was lying in the hospital bed she said

"Daddy,. have they told you i am going to die ?"

The father replied no you will live as he left weeping.

She said "How can you be sure."

He turned around from the door and said "I know."

She turns 15 when she is recovering and comes home to find a letter on her bed.

It says ;

"My Dearest Daughter, if you are reading this it means all went well as I told you. One day you asked me what I was giving you for your 15th birthday, I didn't know then but now my preasent to you is a MY HEART."

2012-01-16T21:52:00.004+08:00

Do you believe in destiny?

Just when you think that nothing in the world is going right, you see the brightest light at the end of the road. And you realised that you've actually got more than what you think you have.

Be it strength or will, it's a blessing in disguise.

Special thanks to everyone who made this a apecial day! (:

I am going to embrace the next 19, 29, 39 years or so with this gratitude and strength. Stronger than what I have always been!

2012-01-07T22:18:00.002+08:00

Theres only this much we can hold on to.

So we have to learn how to give and take.

I'm feeling productive today. Haha, finally managed to transfer my old photos to the new comp and transfer my music to my current phone after such a long time. Glad to admit that I'm such an tech-idiot. thank you thank you.(:

Work had been fun, although really draining at times definitely. haha, and the 'I want to hold teacher's hand' >> (: aww, so sweet. nah, i am not a paedo. Just that they are really cute when they behave, but children please dont use this as a weapon alright? LOL, and camouflaging with the aunties fetching my 'kids' from their school. Yes, i am beginning to feel like a parent myself already. One of my student even called me 'mummy' accidentally. So glad that i found this job instead of those that spent 9 hours typing in front of a comp. Lucky me.

2012-01-04T09:48:00.002+08:00

A brand new beginning.

I will do my best! haha, I almost laugh out when they wanted me to teach English >> in joy because someone finally seen my hidden talent for angmo. This is awesome! oh well, drained but I feel less useless now. (:

P.s my bro told me this when we were watching those taiwan variety shows that show how make up can change a girl's face --->

'Girls are so lucky. At the very least, they won't be shocked by the truth even after they get married. Unlike guys, hais......'

HAHA, RETARDDDDDDD

2011-12-31T10:13:00.003+08:00

It wouldn't hurt, unless you choose to let it << one of the most inspiring quote I've read for the past few days! Oh here's another one, life isn't perfect, but it doesn't mean that it isn't beautiful. Haha, I shall carry this two quotes with me and embrace 2012!

2011-12-29T16:32:00.002+08:00

The truth is,everyone survives as an individual even though we don't really want to admit it.

2011-12-26T23:34:00.001+08:00

Toughen up. You need to be a stronger than this. Be brave and nothing can stand your way. Because I know you can.

2011-12-19T17:51:00.002+08:00

I feel like I'm wasting the Earth's resources everyday.

This is bad arg :/

2011-11-30T08:59:00.002+08:00

One more left one more left!!

-.- << my face when the physics ppl finished their A and screamed in the hall. Can practically feel the fury raging from the bio side. Esp when they started asking us where are we going to celebrate. Home, I'm celebrating it with my bio MCQs happy? Arg. HAHA, i shall regain our friendship only after 3pm tomorrow(and yes steamboat lalala). As for now, shoo physics ppl!

Had a shock when i heard the news. Alas, what a disappointment it must be. Although it has only been the past 2 years (less than that actually), but I enjoyed it with you there. Oh well, Hope that you've found your own place, a better one if possible.

2011-10-27T23:19:00.003+08:00

Treat everyday as your first day, and your last.

Is this what you will do?

haha, this was what the GOH said during graduation day when he spoke about what his young nephew taught him. Felt totally stunned by that - imagine a 5-year old kid teaching us this story.

My reply: I will, cause if I don't do it now, I won't be able to anymore.

oh well, I'm sorry I don't an interesting life to share now. Especially when I'm in a foul mood after attempting to print worksheets properly. Arg, oh well, I'll go green after my A.

As for now.. (:

2011-10-09T22:57:00.002+08:00

I feel blessed. And I think I have every reason to.

Really, thanks for all the GP/ econs tips + some long emails to reveal how we practise for each subjects if it helps + additional notes that we've made for ourselves. Come to think of it, what was I contemplating about 2 years ago?

I'll work hard from now.
This I promise.

2011-09-30T10:00:00.002+08:00

Frankly speaking, I'm at the lost of words.

Have been sleeping like a pig for the past few days since after prelims--> yo where has my motivation went to. Probably can predict my predicted grades now already.

oh well, talk less, do more.

Shall just do that.

gogogo weishan! (:(:(:

2011-09-25T09:27:00.001+08:00

Almost forgot how you were.

Alas, thanks for reminding.

2011-09-21T10:45:00.002+08:00

We can all take a little chill pill.

Circle finally refused to work yesterday (to celebrate sam's bday or what?). haha, and i was initially still thankful that it only apply for the other side of the railway but... I think lady luck loves me alot so she decided to let me be on the first train that terminated its service in serangoon. (: haha, seriously speechless.

Lesson Learnt : We have to count in the time for our transport to break down during exam days and reach school at like 6am?

Arg okay shall stop being such a cranky old woman. This is what happens when I get stressed out sorry-- get pissed over small matters easily.

2 more MCQs before the real thing -- before I explode or anything.

Really, I've got no inner talent to be a ninja.

2011-09-15T20:08:00.003+08:00

Whats wrong?
Seriously.

Alright, I've got to throw away all my negative thoughts and face this bravely. Don't think about what i cannot change, think abour what I CAN CHANGE. time to get back to mugger tan.

PIN LE!!

2011-08-21T20:09:00.001+08:00

1 more gone.

Sometimes, i really wonder how it feels like to __________________________.

oh well, better get back to my studies after slacking for so long ):

2011-08-17T17:42:00.002+08:00

Believe that at the end of the day, you will find the light worth fighting for.

I'm still keeping the faith.

2011-08-07T11:51:00.002+08:00

Wanted to share this song with you:

ah mei's hai you yan lei jiu hao.

But sadly someway somehow due to my lousy computer skills, the video just refuse to get embed into my this entry. I'm quite useless when it comes to technology you see.. :( but its really very touching so if you're free, may want to take a look at the video.

Arg, seriously needs to be more decisive in things. :/
(yes, after the ping-pong game for prom)

shall get back to mugger tan after doing nothing in the entire morning.

2011-08-05T21:55:00.002+08:00

5 years, I think.

She has been in that state for 5 years but he never left her. He attended to all her needs and stayed by her side till the end. He loves her, and she probably can feel it as well.

2 days ago, she left.

I don't know how hurtful it truly is, but he is a brave man. At least this is how he appears to be in front of us.

Perhaps this is her way of loving him. To let him get a rest after the 5 years of hardship, to end both of their sufferings and to go in peace. In fact, there are so many things that I don't know about them.

But theres 1 thing I'm for sure. Their speechless love and bliss are contagious.

2011-07-30T18:16:00.002+08:00

RAWR.

Just spent 5 hours doing my GP ppt. It better turn out fine please please. :)

Found quite a bit of fun facts regarding social networking sites such as rejecting people's names such as elmo seeds whom they 'think' are unreal. Will be quite happy if such a question comes out during A level. Praying super hard for miracle to happen again. I WILL MAKE THE MIRACLE (: haha yes i'm highly motivated after spending so much time on the net, staring the screen. GP here I come (before Ms A

Okay i shall go rest my eyes first.

P.S. never knew my class is so interesting. haha.

2011-07-26T15:17:00.002+08:00

My super brave wangpwins!!

An amazing day (:

Sorry I didn't really conquer my fear despite all the encouragement but had a fun day too! (: I seriously think uss is a place Singaporeans should go at least once in a lifetime, and before the rides have more technical errors or something. Its as if we're entering a different world. Land of far far away, madagascar, egypt etc. Its really a great experience. Pardon me but I really don't know how to describe it further.

One word: woohoo

PS. This has nothing got to do with me being absent from school so don't worry

2011-07-18T01:46:00.003+08:00

Inspirational quote of the day:
'It is the most difficult moments that we can show our bravest self'

Went to watch HP7 with clique today (okay fine, yesterday to be exact).

IT WAS AWESOME LIKE SERIOUSLY! (:(:(:

if you haven't watch it, don't look down okays! Go watch for yourself first!

can totally feel the intensity of the film, especially at the part whereby the teachers stood by hogwarts and are prepared to fight till the end. And the part harry look into snape's past. For once, I hope that snape don't die. At least not so young. But if snape really ends up with lily, there won't even be for hp in the first place. Poor snape for having to tolerate everyone's rubbish and getting misunderstood by everyone. ): Hope harry potter clears his name for him, even though the movie didn't really show it.

Oh well, after the 10 years wait, it all ends.
Something that cannot be avoided, so we'll just have to face the truth.

Thank you for the wonderful and magical 10 years (more than half of my life omg).

okay, time to sleep before i start slapping ppl again tomorrow.
(gosh, why am i stil awake at this time?)

2011-07-14T22:24:00.002+08:00

Gonna be the brightest spark.

A week filled with tears, smiles and a little bit more encouragement by everybody. No, not prepared to give up at all.

Persevere, believe and have a little more faith.
I will to beat you.

2011-07-09T21:16:00.002+08:00

FOOD MARATHON (:

hahas, spent my entire day eating non-stop without really having to worry too much about the money issue (I think A and odac are going to scold me if they see this). THANK YOU TWEETY FOR THE TREAT even though I didn't give you your bday present! And the ' Is the salt ice-cream salty?' haha, best joke of the day man. Made me laugh on the chair and paiseh myself.

My bro is talking crap beside me now again. He is saying how handsome he is and that he doesn't want to how 'sexy' he is -----> self proclaimed <------ in case i puke :/ gosh, no wonder we are different. I'm so much more modest than he is.

2011-07-07T16:14:00.001+08:00

cheated. :/

2011-07-06T19:33:00.002+08:00

Hello you.

Though I think i'm probably the worst person to tell you this but still, don't be so stress okays! Close your eyes, bite your lips and everything will be over real soon.

Treasure those around you while they are still there. For you will not know what can happen at the next moment.

I'm thankful to have you, my friend.

2011-07-02T15:01:00.002+08:00

And the cycle repeats itself.

Convincing one that it'll be alright, while getting convinced by the exact same person that it'll be alright. And we contradict ourselves after that. hahas, tell me something weirder than this. :/ Oh well, at least CTs is generally over. 1 more to make it up for all I've screwed. Ironically the hardest paper apparently but oh well, my choice.

I guess I should just just stop freaking out and stressing myself so much over these. Ended screwing those I'm best at and getting pleasantly surprised by my not-supposed-to-be-as-good subject aka GP. At least I'm no longer 3.9%. <--- overly optimistic. Maybe I'll get my shock back this time. Esp after ms chee's words :(

*okay, i shdn't say much anymore or we'll start the whole process again*

Shall just do whatever i can.

Come what may.

P.S. Can't believe hp is ending in a few weeks time after the 10 years we've all been waiting for. oh man.

2011-06-24T20:48:00.002+08:00

I seriously need a chill pill.

Cause being angry is just going to make things worse :X haha, i have no idea why i'm in such a bad mood ever since yesterday. Probably cause its nearing the CTs = stress is building up + haven't been hitting ppl since very long time ago = pekcek weishan. :( Okay, I've been through worse so this shouldn't be anything. Not going to fall anytime soon.

I wish i'm in Bandersonics now.

Shall put a quote to cheer myself up (and probably whoever is reading this):
"When everything is going against you, don't let yourself be against yourself."

GOGOGO!!!!

(this is post is not making sense, just as usual)

2011-06-23T16:00:00.001+08:00

Trust me, I absolutely don't like the feeling of waiting for something.
Can't concentrate argg.. :/

haha, okay I shall attempt to be more patient this time.
Need to find my ninja potential.

2011-06-19T10:07:00.002+08:00

Yet another week closer.

Being brave is not equivalent to having no fear.
It means doing something despite the fear.

Quite cool. haha, cause Tan didi went to watch green lantern yesterday and he was telling me about the fight between fear vs will. haha, and i predicted the correct ending, its really cliche. And we were discussing about the never-ending serial that after the yellow lantern dies, another more powerful red latern will evolve. - power of anger maybe? Then after the red latern dies, blue lantern comes out. The power of emo-ness idk? Its just like pokemon. So after the all the colours have been used up, there'll be emerald, ruby etc just like pokemon. They'll act till no one wants to watch anymore. So by the time you re-watch the yellow lantern one, you'll start to think, 'whats so great about the yellow lantern that they took so much time to defeat it when its so lousy as compared the the others?' Oh well, i'm just talking rubbish.

Just a little longer.

Just another quote:
Do the little things that doesn't matter, for they do.

2011-06-11T12:17:00.003+08:00

oh man, shouldn't be doing this.

Yeap, busy week filled with catch-ups + ice creams + movie spree + BBQ (later). heh, so its just x-men left for me (was so sad I couldn't watch it yesterday due to the high demand for it) but at least this shows that x-men is nice! (: Looking forward to watching the show. (probably after my CTs since i've wasted so much time already!)

Just a list of things off my checklist :
1. Concert (in the suana)
2. SAT (hha, i just doubled confirm the power of my powderful english)
3. Pirates
4. Kungfu
5. Celebrated stub's bday + successful surprise even though we did it right behind her
6. Went chom chom for nice food and meet up although i look like this -.- full time (was quite excited okay, if we ended it earlier)

I can't really remeber anything else, have got too many stuffs but oh well, STUDIES!! okay i'm a mugger tan now.

mugger tan mugger tan mugger tan.

Oh wait, theres BBQ later with clique. :/

2011-05-27T09:04:00.003+08:00

Its hard to find fun in a busy schedule.

But its not impossible.

Well, on a brighter note, at least its far less demanding as compared to few weeks before. (: Just a few more days, and we'll all be free. okay, not exactly free but probably time to catch our breath before going further.

Favourite word of the day: HOLIDAY

Again, we all know the underlying meaning hiding behind this facade of joy, fun, and perhaps a little time to catch up with old friends (BBQ :D). Yes, we should all know. But don't lament, for this is what we've chosen to do so. Hoping against the hope that we'll do well for the coming exams doesn't really help, so just direct such energy to more practical uses. Yes, I'm trying very hard to convince myself. At least there are a few things to look forward to in the holidays (:

Oh man, there're so many things I want to watch:
1. X-men (this is seriously a must-watch okay yoga!!)
2. Pirates
3. Beastly
4. Kungfu Panda 2
5. Myself

okay wts am i typing! hahas, am a little crazy right now.

Alright, Back to work for SAT. In deep shit for not starting to read.

Shall be contented with being an average in RJ for SAT. But its always good to be a little above average (though i highly doubt so at this stage)

P.s. I REALLY WANT TO GO FOR CLASS OUTING AND RIDE DOUBLE BIKE LATER (WITHOUT LOOKING LIKE ROAD RUNNER!!) HAIYO. :/ TOO BAD SO SAD.

2011-05-22T13:49:00.002+08:00

I need to gain weight.

Just a random thought anyway.

2011-05-15T09:00:00.002+08:00

Best friday I've ever spent since the past 1.5 months. (: Probably due to the fact that I can finally leave the school before 7pm and do something productive. Have got alot of catch-ups to do. (Y) I think I'm having a phobia against the school. hahas.

Yeap, so on the :) day, i saw something that makes me happier- This small siblings holding each other's hand. And the sister was telling the brother ' careful okays, the floor wet.' while she attempt to jump over the small puddle of water and her brother followed. :D They're so cute. Quite a small thing but it just makes me wanna go lalalala.

P.S. I'm not a paedophile don't worry.

I need to learn to be home before 8 everyday.
I need to learn more about time management.

Should I?

2011-05-08T22:53:00.002+08:00

Watch me fall.

Give me a break won't you.

I'm sorry people. I'm in this extremely foul mood now.

So this post is going to be filled with all the negative stuffs i'm sure you wouldn't want to see. Go other places to give yourself a rest. You don't have add on my rantings to yours. We all have our own troubles and theres no need for me to implicate you into this. So just go.

Suffering from post-syf syndrome + not getting enough rest even after i'm almost killed. I don't know i really don't know. Seriously, i think even slapping ppl doesn't help now. maybe it would have been better if i don't do so much in the first place isn't it. thats why you can expect so much. Go away just go away. i feel like screaming vulgarities but its really not worth it. cool down tan wei shan. you're not helping by behaving this way. just enjoy alright. At least try your best to.

2011-05-05T21:54:00.005+08:00

A pleasant surprise (:

Though it wasn't our best yet, but thanks so much for all the hard work we've all put in. The 2 weeks of exponential improvement was amazing, minus the fact of reaching home later than 8 everyday and running around bukit timah in the rain. It was all worth it.

We played our hearts out as a band, enjoy the music as one.

One chance, no regret.

We didn't.

Hereby I proudly announce:

Raffles Symphonic Band, One band, One heart, One sound.

Now, time for mugger tan to revive!

2011-05-01T12:45:00.001+08:00

If you still think this is insufficient.

It'll be over real soon.

2011-04-23T22:05:00.002+08:00

Even if the glow is dim, there'll be hope.

Please tell me I'm not evil. Stop looking into my direction and expect me to do anything for i've tried my best. You should have known by now. Never did, am not, and never will be you poor thing.

Alright mugger Tan please go study before you fall asleep unknowingly again.

No, I'm not committing suicide just yet.

Choy.

2011-04-16T21:38:00.002+08:00

Definitely not the best week I've ever had.

Sometimes, its the challenges that make life fun.

Lets all just be more appreciative and accept those we can't change.

At least I passed my GP (seriously, did the teacher mark the wrong script or something?)

I think ms A was quite amused when I went up to her and asked her why I passed. Oh well, just a brighter note of the week, and the rather fulfilling camp which I just returned from, though not counting the serious lack of sleep! At least I see hope in us (:

Nothing is going to break us up, as long as we're united and determined.

Weishan, you'll need to grow more than that.

And you can.

2011-04-10T11:49:00.002+08:00

My weekends are going away soon.

haha, not counting the self-proclaimed weekend tomorrow though.

Shouldn't be posting too much about my stomach ache, in case anything happens.

Anyway, GOOD JOB wangpwinss for our effort that paid off. Probably has something got to do with our awesomest auspicious group name, minus the fact that we are definitely the best group ever! (:(:(: haha, the wii session, unlimited times of practices correcting each other's mistakes, laughters, carrying our pram walking around vivo and acting as gay couples on the mrt are seriously beyond words. For those who didn't achieve what you are worth, please do not be sadden alright! Though it may be inevitable, climb from the fall. For if you don't die from it, you will grow.

Anyway, I've decided to be hardworking, or rather more hardworking from now. Rather traumatised by the results dropping so drastically so yes, weishan is going to be chao mugger. Shall work doubly hard from now on. Meaning the moment i'm typing this. shall chiong after syf. haha, still my priority now though some of you may have differing views. Rather disappointed but if this is the path you choose, so be it. So theres really no need to put on such an act. I think I know why that happened two years ago, and if you are still unwilling to change, it'll be the same old story again.

haha, I'm really not angry when I'm saying this.

Before my piles of homework give me that sheepish smile again,

mugger tan gogogo!

You may be smile because you're happy.

But the reason for your happiness may be due to the exact same smile.

2011-04-05T23:35:00.001+08:00

Don't think I would have the courage to do that again.

A deal

2011-03-31T21:05:00.003+08:00

Its not easy.

No one said that it was going to be.

If 100% is not enough, give it your 200% then.

Because its those little challenge that will make life fun (:

Cause if you don't die from it, you'll grow better than anyone else.

And I will.

haha, I can't believe I laughed so loudly in the lecture hall :/ Cause theres this person who told the teacher that he can't see. and i though he said ' Sir, I can't sing'. OMG, pure embarrassment. okay nvm, at least its over! haha, made a deal with buddy and HY today! Don't worry, I'll keep to the deal and we can all do this together! (: gogogo~

haha, anyway. I think eating is seriously one of the most effective way to cure sadness. Especially those that will make you puke (imagine, 1 bowl of udon + 1 bowl of rice + 1 plate of chicken + salad + drink + side dish) until you can't think further. Yeap, went to eat with summer to cure ourselves from the :( day. Plus gong cha too! Not really as nice as expected but its considered not bad already. At least it looks enticing (:

Yeap, and rushed back for self-prac. OMG, i think the teachers are quite irritated with me cause I just stood outside the staff room and attempt to play all the hi-notes, which sounded super sucky. Was so afraid that one of them will come out with a broom and chase me off (or the soccer guys downstairs will purposely kick the ball at my head to prevent hearing such nonsense again). Too bad, I'll improve till I become like L (or 3/4 as pro), in terms of playing only. haha, quite freaky if i start going around and asking ppl to touch me balloon stomach (which only he has). Yeap yeap, watch and see! :D

Lets just start from now.

2011-03-27T21:29:00.002+08:00

Its not just where you were from, where you are, nor where you're going to be. Its the people whom you meet, are meeting and will be meeting. When was the last time i smiled like that? (minus the cute little kids who smiled at me) May this just continue.

2011-03-22T15:07:00.002+08:00

I'm so glad you're fine.

Time to concentrate on CT to salvage the situation.

How wonderful weishan's life is.

haha, i'm being serious when i say this.

Thank you for everything.

2011-03-19T09:39:00.003+08:00

Can't believe i'm wasting so much of my time on you.

You better love me more.

Oh well, pray hard that i survive my CTs..

2011-03-12T19:08:00.000+08:00

Heys.

Please stay fine alright!
Take better care of yourself!

2011-03-11T23:20:00.002+08:00

HOLIDAY! (study break in disguise)

haha, oh well weishan stop complaining! Everyone is suffering the same fate as you so why don't you just start mugging instead of spending your precious time here?

Bit your lips, close your eyes.
It'll be over real soon.

You have no other way, so just enjoy the process whilst you do it.

For everything is interesting, as long as you are interested.

Before i end up regreting again..

I LOVE MY TUTORIALS (:

2011-03-06T13:47:00.002+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t4fGEMiBOZ4

Nice video.
Very touching! (:

If you're losing motivation, take a look.

It sucks to lose your voice, minus the fact that i can now proudly announce I'm demure for at least one day. (:

2011-02-24T15:43:00.003+08:00

Sometimes, when not doing anything is probably the best thing to do.

When so many people leave you,

theres no need to go chase for them.

Turn around and take a look.

Its those people behind who are really worth the effort.

You don't owe me anything.

Its just me, nothing else.

2011-02-20T11:28:00.002+08:00

JUMP! (:

Be more motivated weishan.

Its so near and you're still slacking here?

What is this?

If you rest today, you'll have to run tomorrow.

oh well, off to OG outing. (haha!)

2011-02-10T21:13:00.002+08:00

Goodbye darling.

I'm setting you free.

Busy week, and its Take 5 tomorrow. So exciting cause i'm going to wear my take 5 shirt s size shirt tomorrow in sentosa while others are mugging their heads off (: Oops! haha, luckily asked S to help me buy or i'll end up wearing XL, which is like my pajamas size. fine, i don't have a pajamas ( thought that its normal till chusan at sleepover with BS) but yeah, you get what i mean right? :D

Oh, and I've got super cool fingers that can't bend now due to my poor catching skills. haha, only plus point is that i look very feminine now when i hold stuffs. And most importantly, its not my right hand so phew! A bit too optimistic but oh well, its a good thing. (: shall train my right hand and the other two fingers. M was saying that after i recover, my other 2 fingers will have super huge muscles. Then when got ppl flex their arm muscles, i shall flex my finger muscles! cool shit like seriously. haha. But didn't expected it to be so serious (though its really not very serious). Learn to treasure myself more. And to whoever is reading this: you should too!

My autumn concerto is ending already. Nnnnoooo~

Shit, weishan stop being so addicted.

2011-02-05T10:53:00.003+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR EVERYBODY! (:

Good food + loads of angbaos + little bit of wine/beer every night= happy weishan.

oh well, i've decided to abandon all the unhappiness, at least for this festival, and just totally enjoy myself.

No homework, no smiling when i don't feel like doing so, no pessimism.

Lady luck please come find me ah!!

P.S. Sentosa and barrage have got super nice nightview! ^^

2011-01-30T20:45:00.002+08:00

HOII HOII.

shit, loads of undone homework smiling at me.

oh well, a little break doesn't harm, right? (:
haha, excuses excuses.

countdown to cny = good food time! ^^
hi fats and glucose, i'm here for you!!

2011-01-25T18:22:00.000+08:00

I'm racing against time.

gogogo!! (:

2011-01-20T21:13:00.002+08:00

Don't assume that people will understand and tolerate everything you do.
Tell them, if its really that important.

Personality conflict, communication breakdown.
Tell me, what else can I do.

Its really not easy getting caught in the middle.
Tell nobody, about how hard it really is when all it takes, is one step before falling off the string.

I'll take my last try.

Happy birthday to me :D

2011-01-16T21:37:00.002+08:00

Nice place.
Nice atmosphere.

Oh well, perhaps not that nice when you have to return to reality with all the undone hw staring in your eyes.

I'm still floating from the trip.
What was I thinking of, like seriously.
it'll never be reality.
The natural scent of seawater, the gentle wind caressing your skin as your hair dance along, and the gorgeous sunset.
Wasn't mine to begin with in the first place.
At least I knew that it was once there, and i was so close to it.

2011-01-15T00:10:00.002+08:00

Just wanna thank a few people for hectic day today:

-Beloved 11S03N (i wanna puke)
-banana sistar ( haha, whats with this name seriously)

Although its not even the actual day, thanks for making today such a pleasant way to start the year (or day due to some you-know-what reason). haha, was really rather surprised when they came into the canteen singing bday song although its really not today. was wondering 'whose birthday is it?' while i just happily sang along with them. Then A tap me and said, 'xiao jie, its your birthday'. Got stunned. Was especially touched when the part 2 came (sorry but i really had to finish my noodles first cause bell was going to ring soon). Wasn't expecting them to go such a distance for it and am i stupid or what? How can I not realised it at all. haha, thank you everybody for all your handshakes, wishes, KISSES (haha, RL) time and everything today. I feel like nadan today (: Actually I have no idea how nadan feels everyday but oh well. Especially to people who contributed so much to this whole thing, thank you so much! Don't really think i deserve so much of your time and effort since its only the short one year since we've been together but you people did it for me anyway. Xie xie ni men. ^^

haha, and bananas for ambushing in my tuition center! (thanks to tan didi who provided the address) Frankly speaking, I was expecting it since tan papa actually repeated what mic told him on the phone super loudly when I was just beside him.

'Who are you looking for?'
'.....'
'QL ah, he not at home eh. Who are you?'
'......'
'huh, you are weishan's friend? I get her to talk to you'
'......'
'huh, why cannot talk to weishan?'
'.........'
'Orh, so you all planning surprise party for her ah?'

Woah, haha. And tan papa turned to me before realising that i was right beside him -shit face-. haha, I've got an interesting father I know. Yeap, but the ambushing part came as a surprise though. Was trying to rush to amk hub and saw these few familiar faces holding a cake singing birthday song. I was like ' OMG~ what are you all doing here?'. My mind went blank at least twice today, this i promise. haha, then went for dinner (minus the random appearance of gab out-of-nowhere) and had BTBT till the aunite tried to hint us so as to chase us off, epic failure camwhore with mic's phone etc. Yeap, I think its great that we still meet up cause we're all awesome people! (: haha, next camwhoring training-- CNY yeah! So exciting! (:

Overall, its just a tiring, yet happy day that makes me wanna go :D:D:D till nobody can see my eyes. haha, had to be cautious about everything in case they push me down the pool or something but yeap, pleasantly surprised.

Thank you for all your love! (:

I LOVE YOU! <3 (when was the last time i added this love in my blog?)

2011-01-11T20:42:00.002+08:00

All motivated to go! (:

'Its as if seeing this glow in a dark, cold cave. Theres still hope!'

haha, I'm sure some of you know what am I talking about. Even if you don't, more people should know tomorrow during band! Oops :/ How lucky can we get, especially after the continuous years of rainy days, with thunders and lightnings all over the place, the rainbow is finally showing itself! <3>

sunshine after the rain, i still believe in you. (:

2011-01-09T20:13:00.002+08:00

Was having meeting in macs when the radio was playing the 2 songs. Got distracted. How timeless can they be?

Probably one of the nicest way to end my holiday - memories of good songs.

I'll be looking forward to more.

More nice songs, generally from westlife:

Don't cry because its over, be glad cause it happened.

2011-01-08T23:00:00.003+08:00

Oh yeah, school is starting! So exciting! (:

aha, i'm trying my best to make it sound more fun already. Trust me, thats the best i can do. And even while i'm typing this, my face is like -.- Theres no use in complaining, since most people are probably undergoing the same dread when school starts. Oh well, lets just do it in a more positive manner then.

I'm sure there are people far more worse than me, right A?

haha, i'm giving you my full sympathy seriously.

Don't cry because its over, be glad cause it happened.

2011-01-02T12:10:00.003+08:00

HAPPY 2011 PEOPLE! (:

Yeap, 2010 had been rather busy, yet fufilling. Probably considering the school and number of bands i'm in. Just gonna do some round-up so you can just skip this whole chunk if you're feeling bored.

Loads of things happened last year, from getting back my results to entering a new school with culture so different from Anderson, meeting people of such diverse background or even getting conducted under the baton of mr oura (whose really really like the opposite end of mr lim i would think). Sounds amazing for what can happen within a year, doesn't it?

Indeed, it was a busy year. Yet, it was fun. Its like crossing a road intersection and meeting people you won't really think you'll meet them beforehand. Some came, while others left to join other routes. But ultimately, you just know that you'll have to let them go. Probably one of my greatest accomplishment last year was to learn to let go, or rather in the process of letting go. I remember I used to cry alot over many small little things but I'm a little braver now. Just a little but at least thats one improvement. I used to take the way people look at me very seriously but I guess that improved as well. Too busy to care so much, I would say.

Heres a few ppl I would like to thank for making my 2010 so awesome:

1. Tan papa, Tan mama, Tan jiejie and Tan didi + extended family.

2. Clique (esp cher, P, qian and cch)

3. 11So3N

4. Garang gunis (you know who you are)

5. Leband (esp tweety)

5. Juniors from amb (esp lower brass ahaha)

6. RISB

7. Nerds (esp YOGA, L, nan, kia, wx, haritha, airen)

8. Banana sisters!

Yeap, sorry if i forget any of you. Thanks for tolerating all my nonsense, rantings and high-ness for 2010. Rest assure cause I'll probably continue to haunt you this year! :D

GOGOGO for 2011 and lets all chiong for the BIG A and SYF this year!

-----------------------------

Went for farewell party sometime ago and it makes me feel old.

YES, auntie tan lao le! Very accomplished though, seeing all your recruits growing up. Time really pass very quickly and soon, we're all leaving amb already. Though most of you won't be able to read this, but I'll just put it in my blog anyway:

Yo kiddos! The long-forgotten photo eh? Just wanna say that I'm really proud of you people for growing up so well. Its definitely a long journey but I'm sure you won't regret it. The road ahead may be filled with more traps but never give up. Press on, your sun will shine after the rain. GOGOGO! (:

2010-12-29T00:50:00.004+08:00

There are many things that you can't change.

The only thing you can change is yourself.

Those who are meant to stay will stay.

For those who wants to leave, no matter how hard you try to keep them, they'll go someday.

So why not just let nature do everything?

And I'm glad that you're still beside me all along (:

The route ahead is tough.

And it'll probably just get tougher.

Hold on to me, my friend.

For we will walk this journey together.

Come what may.

2010-12-22T14:40:00.000+08:00

Its so sweet!! :D:D

Much better than doraemon! Sorry stub!!

因为你的爱很幸福

2010-12-19T00:06:00.002+08:00

因为你的爱很幸福。

When i was young, i used to hate it when my mum wake me up in the morning. Its a torture, especially when the rain is tapping at your window. '5 min', I'll say.

As I grew older, my mum no longer call for me to wake up. Its replace by an alarm clock with this irritating sound. I'll jerk up whenever it sounded, no longer saying '5 min' since it probably doesn't understand it anyway.

As I entered primary 5 and got my first handphone, the irritating sound is somewhat being 'upgraded' into a more soothing music, at least those I like. However, the longer the music went, the more i dislike the song. Explaining why I'll never put my favourite song as the alarm tone.

I guess its not the song that i dislike, its just this whole procedure of having to force open your eyes when everyone is still in their bed. Just that the song signals it.

It signals the end of your fairytale, that its time to return to reality.

Are you awake?

2010-12-17T01:35:00.000+08:00

Finally! :D

This is so exciting..

2010-12-15T16:16:00.004+08:00

When you first enter the stage, and the striking orange light glares at you, all you could do is to look into half-filled hall and look for people you know for support. Many strangers may be there as well, but you know theres always someone there looking for you too. Its really not hard, given the small number of audience. When you finally spot someone you know, your heart will skip a beat initially, then it races against time and slowly become more peaceful. And you silently whisper to yourself,

' For you, darling, I'll do my very best.'

I don't know why but it seems like I'm losing it. Guess its like an overflow whereby theres only this much I can handle. Need to find it back, and I know that I can. Give me some time, for I will only get better. Passion, i won't lose you.

2010-12-13T12:59:00.001+08:00

Its so cute!!! :D:D:D

2010-12-10T02:20:00.002+08:00

NO! I don't want this to end. ):):):
oh well, at least i can stop getting my eyes glue-ed onto this computer screen for a day.
haha, not making sense but look at the time of this post. ^^
Its not making sense either.
okay time to sleep!

And stop being such an addict.

2010-12-04T01:33:00.002+08:00

What am i doing here at such godly hour?

I think this time is probably when most of you are most active but my face is -.- in front of the screen now. Like seriously. not making any sense but oh well. So please ignore this post cause it'll just be full of rubbish (just like any other post actually).

lalalalalala. myvideoloadssoslowlypleasehurryupyouvideomydarlingbediswaitingforme. butican'tgosleepcauseihaventfinishmyshowsoishalljustwastemyprecioustimeawaytypingnonsensicalstuffsandhavereallyuglyeyebaglaterinthedaysinceorchardisabadplaceminusthefood.whyorchardofallplacesinasaturdaysomemore.ohwellshallbeniceandjustgo.becarefulifiaminafoulmood.theeffectofnotsleepingwhenishouldandpoorvenueisdangerous.argstopranting.iamcrazyuntiligetmysleep.lalalalala.

pleaseloadfaster,myvideo.):

2010-11-30T21:23:00.002+08:00

hahahahahahahahaha. Okay nvm.

2010-11-28T17:31:00.002+08:00

oh shit.

I am too engross in my dramas that I am having panda eyes now. ):

Addicted.
But happy, haha!

Off for more! ^^

2010-11-24T22:07:00.000+08:00

HOLIDAY (:

2010-11-22T15:57:00.005+08:00

For every step you try to come closer,

I'll just take 2 steps back.

Come follow me.

Say H-O-L-I-D-A-Y. Thats how you spell happy (:

haha, finally a break for myself before the chiong-ing starts again next year. My current hobby now is to slack at home.

Anyway, went orchard (one of the rarest time in which i'll feel happy to be there) on friday to eat super nice food (which equates to weishan being broke right now) and paint my fingernails. haha, taitai-in-training (times 5) ma. Becoming more bimbo already! okay nvm :/

J became my tour guide for nice food. Share the food, share the calories! haha, not very worry about that though, both of us are not scared of getting fatter.

SUPERB UDON + BERRY ICE-CREAM + MANGO ICE + TAKOYAKI = HAPPY WEISHAN (:

So poor EI had to sit there and watch us eat nice food since she's betting with someone else. haha, gogogo EI you can do it! But really peifu her for sitting there and watching the rest of us eating all the godly food. I don't think i'll be able to do that myself. :/ Can't really resist all the temptation as well. Not going to go Orchard anymore until i save enough money for more food. haha.

I LOVE HOLIDAYS :D:D:D

(when you don't have to study for any upcoming exams, that is)

2010-11-17T18:44:00.004+08:00

See,

as much as you want to hold on to the bitter sore memory that someone has left in this world,

you are still in it.

And the very act of living is still a tide:

at first it seems to make no difference at all,

and then one day you look down and see how much pain has eroded.

HP7 is nice. Worth a watch! :D

haha, shouldn't discuss anything here, in case i spoil some of you. oh, and go for the 3D one if possilbe, should be rather good!

You know sometimes its just great to sit on the bus with countless of of strangers with a good book in your hand. And the rain outside will go tapping on the cold window in the background. And the best part is : you're all alone. Nobody is watching or anything. Cause to them, you're just another complete stranger. No worries, i'm not emo-ing or anything. (: see theres a smiley face. Shit ;/ becoming more and more bimbo .

2010-11-12T22:53:00.003+08:00

i am lagging but OP is over! :D

Or am i supposed to put a sad face in case any of the hi-5s sees this?

haha, don't think they'll mind since they're my awesom-est PW wangpwins!! Luckiest group ever to have all the QnA questions more or less prepared. Was rather surprised though, when we heard the questions. Didn't expect those we went through to really come out but oh well. Must have something goto do with the group name! (inside joke) ^^

Okay, back to my i give my first love to you movie!

yoga it better be nice!

and poor L and Nan for having to tolerate me and my nonsense again!

haha!

Off to HP7 next weekkkkkkkk~~ ^^

2010-11-06T23:15:00.002+08:00

See no evil.

Was telling my jie about the strange things I heard in the bus that day, just some bimbo talk + that super high pitch voice. Imitate until i wanna burst out laughing so my jie act as those guniangs you will see in those shows like 'huang dong~ guo dong~ xiang wo ma?' (do you miss me etc)(i'm sorry P i can't translate very well so just bear with me for awhile). HAHA, SHE WAS SO EPIC when she tried to pull her invisible hair from her invisible mole while she says that. I've got a damn crappy sister. Watched too much show! See, its in my genes why i'm watching so much shows! NOT CAUSE I AUNTIE OKAYS!!

Please let me be less lian during my OP and Q&A. Yes, i can't believe i'm saying this but getting feedbacks that i may be a little too casual during my presentation (though some of them said that its a good thing). Like hello? Weishan is a nerd can, not lian! Perhaps it just cause of the school i'm in. And no, i'm not ranting. Just think that its a bit ironic.

You know I've got so much to say but i just don't know where to start with. oh well, might as well don't start.

I miss you,
my food.

2010-11-05T10:01:00.002+08:00

Hello.

Lets talk about the concert first. It was super awesome overall (no, not that dahui type of awesome), just a few hiccups here and there. Thought that my solo was rather disappointing, guess i prepared too much for it.

You know there are just some days whereby you really really feel like dying and all you have is your will to continue all these? Thanks wc and Sh, I know you two are really concern over me (esp WC), but no worries, I know when to stop. I just don't want to regret since its probably my last concert with you before I battle the A next year. (: oh well, regretted during the solo anyway.

Went to kia's house on monday to rant! haha, wrote out of point again, I guess. And now i'm here, hoping against hope that I'll get my A safely. Did I mention that the whole of RI read the 2nd passage before cause it came out during our CT? haha. ITS LIKE MORE ACCURATE THAN WINNING 4D LIKE HELLO? yeap, so you can see all the excited faces though the questions are different.

heading off to ee iyn's house later..

2010-10-30T00:39:00.002+08:00

when time leaves you,
don't give up.

Cause you only have yourself left.

Only when you can survive those others cannot survive,
can you be stronger than them.

Fighting against time,
but i won't and can't give up.

2010-10-28T22:10:00.001+08:00

Super cute MV (:

teach me how to feel

2010-10-25T22:37:00.004+08:00

some people claim that they are better off dead.

Others hope that they never existed.

Too bad, I'm too tired to decide which group i really belong to.

So I chose to belong to the group called ' I am reborn everyday'

Yeap, it rained today so theres no 'announcement' before the assembly. Thank you duabeigong, guanyinniangniang plus so many deities who helped me so much so that i can be safely promoted. I am so super grateful to all of you. haha, although i failed my gp, again. Mrs lawrence please don't see this okays? haha, i still want to be the legend. (:

Its quite funny walking down the corridor with so much tear, happiness or sadness. Some calling back to inform their parents that they're safely promoted, others comforting their friend whom, for whatever reasons, broke into tears. LOL, and i was like practically screaming at yoga. Probably the only person who inform her friend first without even calling her parents first. Don't think they really care - as some of you may have known how onzz my parents are. Anyway, thanks yoga for hearing me rant again. Guess I paiseh myself again by screaming in pure chinese at yoga when everybody was just talking softly to their parents in perfect english. haha!

I AM VERY PROUD OF THE FACT TO BE ABLE TO SPEAK IN FLUENT CHINESE OKAYS!

scream + rant + speak loads of chinese without thinking + talk to band 3 ppl whose angmoh is as powderful as mine = feel so much better already!

haha, this doesn't sound much like a compliment but it is okay yoga! XIE XIE NI! *although i'm praying hard that you don't see this else will yaya me again* Guess some of my classmates were quite stunned by the way i behave in front of ppl i'm very comfortable with. ^^

okay nvm. I guess i'm just jaded. oh well, shan't complain too much. You (whoever reading this) must have your own problems so i shall not add on to it by sharing so much.

On the way down the canteen, people were just anticipating that i'll cry. I mean, I'm really quite alright. To say that i'm not at all affected would be a lie, but to say that I'm so affected that I'll cry in front of you guys is just quite impossible. Guess its my character that i only cry in front of selected people. So if i ever cried in front of you - be proud- cause you're special. Cry as in those laugh till cry type is not counted. Back to gp, so its really quite weird when they keep asking me to cry if i feel like it, and not hide my feelings. So as usual, I'll go -.-. haha, I know you guys are just trying to cheer me up, but i guess the best way, as what P sms-ed me, is just to walk beside me and remain silent. If I want to share with you something, I will. If I don't, I won't. Unless you really understand my silence, you won't understand my words (OMG, xl i finally understand it now!) But really thanks so much for the thoughts, for being just there to want to offer your help. (: Its my problem, not yours.

haha, A just sms me to tell me the things I told her last time, and continue insisting that she is not a les. Glad that you remember it but I'm strong enough to handle this myself. (: I am, and will be stronger than what you think i am.

oh well, don't know if i should type this out but, I guess you really disappoint me sometimes. Expected though. And i'm trying very hard not to flee away from you.

new blogskin (:

2010-10-23T13:21:00.005+08:00

yeap.

new blogskin, finally.

Guess its always fun to re-read your entries only to realise how stupid some may be or to find back something you've once lost. Its like staring out of the window watching some show, or rather, your past memories. How strongly you had once feel for it, and how minor they are now, and how much you've grown from it. Its like replaying a tape to see yourself waving hand to the screen, face filled with smiles, running under the beautiful sun etc. haha, i am getting more random.

Back to reality, results going to be released on monday. Thats not the worst, they are going to call out those who will be retain during assembly such that the whole school knows the people. No, its still not the worst. The thing is, I stand a high chance of getting called out as those who failed GP will get retain.

why GP of all subjects? :(

P.S. if I happen to be in super bad mood on monday, please pardon me.

oh well, no use worrying for the unknowns.
Come what may.

2010-10-19T22:34:00.003+08:00

some people are just not worth you worrying about.
Cause we don't need them nor their shit.
So why bother?

The most important thing is, you're yourself.
No, i'm not going to scream vulgarities at you.

L.

2010-10-17T18:01:00.002+08:00

super nice song (:

I'm quite sure that it'll be too chinese for most of you but listen to its tune plus lyrics. Rather sure you'll like it too!

As we continue to hide behind our smiley faces,

Whats behind those masks?

Immerse pain and sorrow, perhaps.

Just that nobody dares to expose their most vulnerable area to others, in fear that they may be attacked.

I guess everyone has got their own problem, just that mine is not as big as yours.

stay strong, my friend.

its okay to unmask yourself in front of me.

2010-10-13T23:03:00.003+08:00

Hello.

Thank you Nathan. Good afternoon everyone, I'm kelly. And together, we're hi-5. Which PW will dare to do this 1 day before your OP dry run? haha. Epic-ly funny.

You know there are just some songs you'll never be bored with. No matter how old they are, or how many times you've seen the mv, it still touches you? Above is just one of them, one that I would like to share with who ever who reads this.

Hurt.

no, i'm not emo-ing by the way.

2010-10-10T20:30:00.002+08:00

haha, how real was that?

okay nvm, was just looking through my albums and noticed this photo. Poor amirul though :/

Yeap, finally went for leband prac.

Got 'RJ what' but mr lim again, like seriously, he is never bored with it. So poor S and tweety had to suffer with me. haha, rafflesians unite we'll show our might! *ahhhhhh* We'll show them how rafflesians fight *ahhhh*

okay nvm if you don't get it. Must be crazy these few days. So much to do, so little time. Okay weishan, enough.

Fight till the end, even when people tell you that you can't.

Have i ever told you how comfortable it is to have you in my arms when everything just doesn't seem right? All I need to do is to hug you really tight and it'll all be over soon. cause I know that no matter who came and left, you'll still be there. No matter how many instruments I've tried or how expensive they may be, you are still the best for me (:
Welcome back, darling.

2010-10-05T12:53:00.001+08:00

thump thump thump.

Its over.

Out later (:

i'm addicted to you ^^

2010-10-02T16:07:00.002+08:00

5 down, 1 more to go (:

Guess this is the first exam that theres actually people who thinks that i'm slacking. wow. haha, and probably the first that i don't feel so tense up for some unknown reason.

must be that day.

oh well, something good, i supposed.

lets just pray really really hard that my grades don't suck that badly ultimately.

when you wish upon a star,

don't just wish.

do something after your wish

if you really want it to come true.

for those who are still chionging/mugging for your promos/ prelims ( including me!),

this is just a very minor part of our life.

surmount it and it'll be over soon.

No use crying over split milk anyway.

oh well, at least it'll be over soon.

weishan, gogogo! ^^

2010-09-23T15:03:00.000+08:00

just want to hear me keyboard goes tiak tiak tiak (:

press on.

2010-09-18T19:29:00.003+08:00

The sky is beautiful tonight. (:

Grateful, I truly am.
I've always been a lucky person.

I have a very supportive family,
Friends whom I know will be there whenever I needed help.
Seniors who gives me good advices and support,
Juniors who says hi to me.

I study in a school dreaded by many to get into,
and I can play an instrument.
I am physically and mentally healthy,
and do not have to worry about my meals.

I've met many great people who help me grow,
and some not-so-nice people to spice up my life.

I could have die as an infant if born any earlier,
but I didn't.

Thanks for all you people had done for me,
whoever you are.

Truly, nothing is more beautiful than having a calm heart,
and an appreciative one. ^^

2010-09-13T23:04:00.000+08:00

Ouch!

Don't ask me why.

i have no idea myself.

Lack of food, probably.

2010-09-11T19:18:00.002+08:00

hate it when tutorial questions have nothing got to do with what is being taught.

Stop it, weishan.

Don't complain.

You've chose this path yourself so live with it.

don't worry, be happy.

2010-09-08T14:53:00.002+08:00

To all who are working hard for your O/N/A/promos:

Its up to you now.

Hate it when my bed is so comfortable and that its raining.
Slacked for the past few 6 days already!
please, holiday don't go away.

haha, wonder where my O spirit went to.
Sometimes, I really don't understand how people get insomnia.
Quite hard for me.

Good thing though.
meaning that I'm still healthy (:

TIME TO START STUDYING FOR PROMOS ALREADY!
STOP SLACKING STOP SLACKING.
tomorrow.

haha, okay nvm.
should drink more coffee to attempt to keep myself awake.
oh, and leave that seductive bed of mine too. Its magnetic force is too strong.

eh to the auntie who picked the biggest strawberry.
haha, glad that you're finally very xinfu now
and that i can finally rest my ears from your 'shhaaannnnn... how how?'s and 'omg, should I's.
you better don't neglect me ah.
Else.. ^^

2010-09-05T11:39:00.002+08:00

Tired.

Played for TOGETHER 7 yesterday.

First together that I can feel so relax and just play whatever I like. haha, okay i do follow the score to a certain extent(quite large) okay. Just a little bit of wrong notes since my side-reading seriously isn't very good. oh, and time to train my high notes! (after this flu bug has decided to leave me alone, LOL) procrastination procrastination.

First time being like tweety. LOL, just want to say:

XIEXIENI tweety senior for always coming back to help me despite your busy schedule.(esp sibf during your j2 year in that crazy school filled with smart(its actually more than that but i can't think of a word) ppl) Really just can't thank you enough. I know its hard being you to always be there no matter if its band/ academic (esp angmoh) or just any random matter! Now I zhang da already, can take care of myself and other people. So you must jiayou too! (:

Just wanted to clarify some matters if my amb juniors sees this:

Hello juniors!

yeah, I'm not in the tuition program cause your poor senior had been/is going to be very busy lately. Don't see a point in joining if I can't commit to saving your grade. Will try to join after A level when I'm more free. But still feel free to ask me things regarding band/academic okays? not being in the program doesn't mean you can't ask me anything. (:

Kids if you see this, stop asking me why aren't I in the program. haha.

I think I've truly free myself.

2010-09-01T21:58:00.002+08:00

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Welcome home (:

Its really amazing how those few hours together can make me feel as if JC hasn't happen yet, minus the different uniform everyone is wearing. Screaming and running around the canteen (oh freak, unglam again!), looking at teachers rushing off again, ms mok's usual attitude and her little fans (LOL, that is really the most epic yesterday), mr yong and his 'small boy rushing somewhere although he is going nowhere' look, mama chong and her nags. Seeing juniors everywhere. Its like everything is back to normal.

The its-alright-to-not-crack-your-brain-in-front-of-me feel.
LOL, plus the chase by security guard with the usual ppl, nolstagic.

Then went for BBQ with band batchmate. got suanned ( as usual) though its still quite fun.

You know something?
I've never hate you before.

Went home as a tired girl.
But I know that deep inside,
I'm more contented.

For you, darling.

I'll do my best and prove myself worthy.

2010-08-29T22:26:00.002+08:00

For that moment, I am the spark of the world.

I wish I can dance ballet.

Its such a graceful dance to watch,

as if time has stop for you to gently lift up your hand, then raise your feet.

Who ever wonder the practise they have had behind those every move?

Just something random.

Stop digressing, weishan.
you have to start studying,
before you let so many people down again.

oh well, tuesday tuesday <3
Motivated.

2010-08-28T01:48:00.002+08:00

A machine.

don't feel
don't comment
just follow blindly.
you just have to copy paste in an exam and you are good.
you just have to nod your head when they say so and you are good.
you just have to smile to everyone and you are good.
ironical.

forget it, I should sleep.
Nights!

2010-08-15T17:39:00.002+08:00

'Its just the beginning'

I think I've recovered from the post-competition syndrome already. Haha, thanks to the plentiful amount of rest this week. ( and loads of ranting to yoga, of course!)

Yeah, Weishan is back to normal :D

oh, and no more yoga for this week cause module is over. ): No more 'feel the stress on your fingers.. now slowly release the stress'= sleeping time actually. No light, soft music playing in the background, lying down on the comfortable mat in this air-conditioned room is _________. Tell me how not to sleep. Had to run under the sun to play captains ball again. Quite fun though. (minus the fact that i oversetimated myself by trying to defend this girl who is at least 10cm taller than me). LOL, and that girl is like almost laughing at me trying to jump but epic fail almost everytime. Decided that maybe HY will be a better defender with her height so i happily siam to one side. haha, but we both epic fail together! ): At least i feel healthier now ^^ 10g of fats, maybe?

yeah weishan, be happy.

I've decided, you can't affect me anymore.

grow grow grow, you have to be stronger than this.